Busy? or Just Plain Crazy?

I am an aspiring Graphic Designer. I don't want my skills to diminish while I'm working odd jobs, so of course I want to pick up some graphic design jobs on the side. Save the Date magnets here, Business cards there, brochures sprinkled in around the outside..... But why do I feel the need to take on extra jobs while I currently work 60 hours a week? What is it that I'm fearful of if I just don't do something for one minute?

What is it that I won't accomplish by sitting down for one month and not having anything else to do. Am I afraid that I won't be capable of competing when I get to the real world? Is it that I need to prove my self worth to others? OR! _ what if I'm one of those people who needs to have too many things going on so I have stuff to bitch about? I hope not.

I like making sure that I'm living my life to the brim. I want to make sure I am doing everything I can to expose myself to every possibly opportunity. I have a hard time saying no to people because I know that when they ask for my help, they actually want it. I want to make others happy so I want to do it... Confused yet? Good, we're in the same boat.

After this job is over, I'm going to do nothing but sit.......

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and do graphic design work ;)